I believe this is a strange presentation of the domestic, the diva, the future/past/present and struggle to be heard and understood. How is that for an extraction? Perhaps my grad work, homelife, workplace and particularly statistics for humanities is causing a fracture? lol I love this~~~
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Ravelry Party...
So a local store~ THE WOOLIE EWE was super wonderful and offered the Ravelry group that follows/shops there to celebrate pre holidays (?) and get a discount while having the store just to us crazies. Saweeettttttttttt. Well long story short- I came, I saw, I conquered. There is enough yarn to make more scarves. Oh boy!!!! Squuueeeeeee
So it has been a nice time tonight- Thanks to the staff along with Jill & Sue--- for staying late, providing us with a wonderful discount and being a good place to hang out. Good nite!
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Honey- watch my mouse
Wondering about electronic relationships?
I wonder if somehow we have tried to make things easier and quicker by creating more ways to access each other and yet, lost the ability to communicate. I see so many mis-communications and mis-understandings so disproportionate to good old fashioned conversation. I keep being reminded that 80% of communication is non verbal. Amazing and yet not- when I can be eyeball to eyeball with someone we can hear intonation and get meaning without wondering what was meant. Electronic communication- is it the death knell to actually taking the time to call someone or make a good old fashioned 'date' to spend some time with someone? Some days I get really disappointed with how much we live in vacuums. I never wanted a computer to be an extension of my relationships or the sum of my support. Your thoughts?
I wonder if somehow we have tried to make things easier and quicker by creating more ways to access each other and yet, lost the ability to communicate. I see so many mis-communications and mis-understandings so disproportionate to good old fashioned conversation. I keep being reminded that 80% of communication is non verbal. Amazing and yet not- when I can be eyeball to eyeball with someone we can hear intonation and get meaning without wondering what was meant. Electronic communication- is it the death knell to actually taking the time to call someone or make a good old fashioned 'date' to spend some time with someone? Some days I get really disappointed with how much we live in vacuums. I never wanted a computer to be an extension of my relationships or the sum of my support. Your thoughts?
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
SO Much Since Last
Well who knows all the details I might have shared if only...
I will say that we have been traveling quite a bit- LA, Seattle, Manhattan and a few other places more local. Finding my rhythm with school but about to go into mid-terms next week. I have genogram diagrams to do regarding my family (3 generations) and found a cool software that I will purchase to help. Gets complicated when reporting relationships and hell between marriages and divorces- lots of kids coming and going etc software is needed! Interesting stuff. So that is a current whoopie- another is I am finally starting to get the hang of more 'complicated' patterns and feel good about moving beyond a scarf! **shudders** Well maybe still for testing new yarns!!
Hubs is busy with work, I am busy with work but still do not know who I report to...my boss quite a month ago or so and still not one person has emailed or called to say-- hey we will be a resource while we are replacing him. People have offered up a funny scenario from (The Office) where someone thought they were just going about their business and come to find out, a computer glitch caused a delay in firing this guy. Yes, that is kind of funny all things considered. Not that I want to find myself in that scenario...at all! It has just been so unusual to work for this organization that I am still at a loss on what to even say-- how that kind of thing happens.
So- lets see...knitting- check, cooking-not so much lately, sadly my Mother has had more bad news- malignant skin cancer-got a few pieces of her forearm removed-poor thing. I swear it grieves me to no end that she gets such careless treatment all because she is one of those people caught in the 'can't retire' category- can't afford insurance so she is on medicaid/medicare...I gate injustice and I hate it when it is so in my face. I hate that the woman that fought for me and my life leaves me no room to fight for her, there is no fight that will be won with insurance and medical entities. I hate that I can have IVF paid for 100% and she gets some a-hole that slaps latex bandages on her after she has already told them she has allergic reactions. It goes on but I would sink in to a depressive state if I gave in to all the disparity.
I cling to my yarn. I try to find good things in each day to thank God for. I work at being more patient- listen more and most days I fail but I want to give that to the ones I love. Other than that little soap box step up-----
we are just hanging in there. May be some news of interest in the near future but for now...lets just knit.
Be well.
I will say that we have been traveling quite a bit- LA, Seattle, Manhattan and a few other places more local. Finding my rhythm with school but about to go into mid-terms next week. I have genogram diagrams to do regarding my family (3 generations) and found a cool software that I will purchase to help. Gets complicated when reporting relationships and hell between marriages and divorces- lots of kids coming and going etc software is needed! Interesting stuff. So that is a current whoopie- another is I am finally starting to get the hang of more 'complicated' patterns and feel good about moving beyond a scarf! **shudders** Well maybe still for testing new yarns!!
Hubs is busy with work, I am busy with work but still do not know who I report to...my boss quite a month ago or so and still not one person has emailed or called to say-- hey we will be a resource while we are replacing him. People have offered up a funny scenario from (The Office) where someone thought they were just going about their business and come to find out, a computer glitch caused a delay in firing this guy. Yes, that is kind of funny all things considered. Not that I want to find myself in that scenario...at all! It has just been so unusual to work for this organization that I am still at a loss on what to even say-- how that kind of thing happens.
So- lets see...knitting- check, cooking-not so much lately, sadly my Mother has had more bad news- malignant skin cancer-got a few pieces of her forearm removed-poor thing. I swear it grieves me to no end that she gets such careless treatment all because she is one of those people caught in the 'can't retire' category- can't afford insurance so she is on medicaid/medicare...I gate injustice and I hate it when it is so in my face. I hate that the woman that fought for me and my life leaves me no room to fight for her, there is no fight that will be won with insurance and medical entities. I hate that I can have IVF paid for 100% and she gets some a-hole that slaps latex bandages on her after she has already told them she has allergic reactions. It goes on but I would sink in to a depressive state if I gave in to all the disparity.
I cling to my yarn. I try to find good things in each day to thank God for. I work at being more patient- listen more and most days I fail but I want to give that to the ones I love. Other than that little soap box step up-----
we are just hanging in there. May be some news of interest in the near future but for now...lets just knit.
Be well.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Simplicity
I am so at peace as I sit here just thinking of all the time that has passed since my last post. I have completed 2 classes in my graduate program, had a mid year review with my boss and gone thru a few other pretty big 'things' in my world but on this side of it all...content.
I can only say that I think I am learning how to be reasonable in the midst of challenges and that if someone is upset around me I do not have to become engaged in that to support them. Good thing because in Counseling I would not do well if every story shook me and every pain brought up my own. Lots of good coming out of a very unplanned time. Hoping that you in this moment are well.
If all else fails...running away to the knitting shop cures most upsets. ;-)
I can only say that I think I am learning how to be reasonable in the midst of challenges and that if someone is upset around me I do not have to become engaged in that to support them. Good thing because in Counseling I would not do well if every story shook me and every pain brought up my own. Lots of good coming out of a very unplanned time. Hoping that you in this moment are well.
If all else fails...running away to the knitting shop cures most upsets. ;-)
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Birds of a Feather
This is the 2nd season of this group coming back to bare children, love to see their little beaks over the edge of the nest! School is a highlight to my existence although I wish** I had the ability to realllly study. Work is steady and so my hours are very limited. Knitting is a dream venture that I try to steal a row here and there. CO for a ribbed hat in Prism Alpine colorway... a neat navy blue, some deep green and kind of a muted sky color. I am hoping to finish the Blossom wrap in the next few days but I already have a final. Yes- I have been in Grad. School less than one month and have my 1st final on Wed. I chose this approach so that I could accelerate when possible to offset when I might go slower. I am poorer- is that a word? Brain is taxed but grateful for new info! So all in all it is a hot ass summer and at 108 today with news that not only Farrah Faucett died but Michael Jackson...Ed McMahon earlier this week and now Walter Cronkite is looking sketchy. Icons are leaving rapidly. Hard not to wonder what is happening...
Blessings to you.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Big Stuff Brewin
Well I am home this afternoon with a terrible stomach and stuffed head. I wonder if it is psychosomatic? I normally do not have nerves of steel and this can be quite embarrassing if someone knows me. I think my nerves may be to blame. I applied for a Masters program in Counseling as I am finally willing and ready to 'be a student' again. In all its glory- sacrifice in financial matters, certainly time and for a while even I am sure emotion. I *need* to work so this will be a balance I have not really had to do in a long while.
If you wonder what my desire is- to make a difference even if in some small way. I have always found people fascinating and perplexing and occasionally completely disastrous.
My undergrad is dble major of Business Management and Psychology...loved every minute. I also know that once I hit 40 my thoughts are different and what I largely accepted, I cannot in the same way. I am in a corporate setting and it is so clear to me that I once excelled in that arena- warts and all but now---- not so much. My heart is not in that mode- I am struggling to make it matter to me. I will do my best to give the company results but ultimately I decided this life of mine is worth more to me than what I have invested myself in. I want to work with people- listen and respond in a way that assists others in growth- understanding and healing. Who has made it thru childhood and well most parts of life without a few owies.
So dear reader- say a little something for me~ I await the verdict. Lets see if this is my time to create a change. If not= I will have many more crafty options. Heck I need to CO some kind of project that marks this moment regardless of the outcome!!!!
Be well.
If you wonder what my desire is- to make a difference even if in some small way. I have always found people fascinating and perplexing and occasionally completely disastrous.
My undergrad is dble major of Business Management and Psychology...loved every minute. I also know that once I hit 40 my thoughts are different and what I largely accepted, I cannot in the same way. I am in a corporate setting and it is so clear to me that I once excelled in that arena- warts and all but now---- not so much. My heart is not in that mode- I am struggling to make it matter to me. I will do my best to give the company results but ultimately I decided this life of mine is worth more to me than what I have invested myself in. I want to work with people- listen and respond in a way that assists others in growth- understanding and healing. Who has made it thru childhood and well most parts of life without a few owies.
So dear reader- say a little something for me~ I await the verdict. Lets see if this is my time to create a change. If not= I will have many more crafty options. Heck I need to CO some kind of project that marks this moment regardless of the outcome!!!!
Be well.
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